Some days...........

I'm really not sure how I survive! The girls really pushed my buttons and I started to lose it after being with the trio all day by myself. Jason went off to help his dad today with a flip and usually I'm good. Not sure what put me over the edge. The girls got sent to their room to play until their dinner was done and played. They were getting hyper because they where exhausted. I got more upset when I tried calling Jason and he wasn't answering his freaking phone. I needed to know when my back up would be around. Sigh!
Chloe is still hacking like crazy and Connor has gunk coming from his nose and trach. When I listened to his lungs today they didn't sound very good. Both it seems will be off to the Dr next week. I'm hoping a bit of antibiotics will be all that the kids will need. In a few weeks it will be two years since Connor has had a hospital stay, hopefully it will continue and not be broken. A new year is fast approaching and wonder what it may hold. Jason is looking at moving to a new job and has an interview which I really hope goes well and the offer is good. He really needs to get out of his situation and get a better stable work environment.
I finally got the gump to look up my grade for my chem class. I thought for sure I would be looking at a D, I had to have blown my final. But I guess I did a bit better then I thought. My final grade for the class is a C! Yeah! I wish it was at least a B, but beggers cannot be choosers! LOL! I really didn't put my all into the class and was distracted with my sis and all. So know I need to work on getting my stuff transferred over to the other college so I can start to take my other classes. It has been nice being off and just having to deal with work and the kids. The stress this last semester really did kick my rear.

Christmas! Is it over yet???

Really this Holiday cannot be over soon enough! It is always so stress ful. But it has been a bit fun as well. The girls are very excited and keep talking about Santa and tell us what they want Santa to bring. Gwynne keeps asking for Bratz suddenly. Don't know where that is coming from. I don't know what it is about those things but they WILL NOT be in our house! Daddy agrees as well. LOL! But I think they will be very happy with what they get.

These last two weeks have just about killed me I think. Between my class I was almost failing, sick kids, and it being the busy time for me at work. I really missed my family. I didn't get to see anyone much but in passing and a kiss as I was walking out the door. I have not had the heart to check my final grade. I really think I failed my final exam. I totally blanked and I studied. Not as much as I should have with the kids being sick. But I'm using that as an excuse and I know that. I have never actively failed a class before. I have failed a couple classes, but that was when I just stopped going and never withdrew from them. And now they kill my dang GPA!

I made some great memories with the girls this weekend. They helped me make my Eggnong cookies. We told them we had to set out some cookies for Santa and some carrots for the reindeer tonight. They were super cute and fighting over who got to do what. But then all they wanted to do was eat the dough after I gave them the beaters to lick on. LOL! And they kept asking for a cookie, so after the first batch came out and cooled they each got one. And little Gwynne snuck back in when out backs were turned to grab another. Little stinker!

So I have two weeks of no school and just hanging with my family. I might go crazy being around them so much! HEHEHE! I just love sitting on the couch watching cartoons and cuddling with them. They are TOTAL couch potatoes like mom and dad already.

I think I have made some good memories for the kids this year and hope to continue in the future. I was thinking last night while giving Chloe a breathing treatment that I don't have memories like this with my mom. Chalking it up to that she was a really young mom, but it just isn't there. I pray when my kids get older they can look back and remember all these fun times and things we did. My mortality has been tested lately hearing of several young moms passing away. Hope and prayers that I'm around for a very long time to maybe become a pest to my children and grandchildren. LOL!

I never make New Year resoultions....Really what is the point when they are broken in a week. But I need to get my eating back under control and cut down on my soda. I live off soda and it really is starting to effect my health in the negative. And I don't like all the weight I have on right now. Just way to heavy and the mom gut is KILLING me! Never had a gut before and I really think that is what drives me INSANE. Oh the stress when the kids were first born! It sucked! But it was a FANTASTIC diet! Can a girl get some stress like that again! Too bad speed is so addicting. The skinny part is a great side effect I think. See! This is my crazy thinking! "This is the face of a women on the edge!" LOL!


Who can tell me where that quote is from!!! :)

I really SUCK at this!

April 2007 are you kidding me! I need to start doing this more often. Well here our recent photos of the kiddos and our first official professional family photo. Try to be back sooner with some good stories! But I wouldn't hold your breath.


Okay I need to resize my pics! I'm so illerate with computers sometimes!

So I'm am a big computer/internet idiot at times. And lets just say I only have certain passwords I use, but couldn't figure out what combo of e-mail address and password I used. Lame I know it! :P I'll get over it. I'm telling you kids suck out your brain cells and leave you with a shell of what it use to be.

Let me just say that the age of 3 is far worse the 2 ever was. I have a fashionista who is driving me crazy. She not only wants to pick out her own clothes, but today start having a fit because I wasn't putting a dress on her sister as well. What is up with that?? I can do girly on occasion, being a tomboy in my previous life, I like to dress up sometimes. But I don't know if I can do it 24/7. Thank my lucky stars she isn't into all the hair stuff yet. It is already difficult getting the two girls ready for preschool.

Oh and can I write horrible stuff about California Children Services (CCS)?? That is really a touchy subject when it comes to things for Connor. Why do you have to fight tooth and nail for things they and you now they are suppose to be doing. I wish I had the people skills to run for office because I really want to trim the fat and red tape BS that is not only in this organization but plenty of others.

Connor has learned to shake his head "No". It was cute the first few times he did it, but now as in every child who hits the no, no, no stage, EVERYTHING IS NO, NO, NO!!! I need to bust out the video camera and get film of it. But I really suck when it comes to taking pictures and video. Don't ask! I don't understand my problems so I cannot explain them to someone else.

Wearing Thin

It is mostly the Holiday that is wearing me down, but add a cold and very little sleep over the Christmas weekend and I begin to have issues. Not like I don't have issue to begin with. LOL! So I'm probably in the same boat as a lot of people. Looking at your bank account after all the shopping and wondering were in the HECK did all your money go! I need to figure out something else for next year. I was truly disgusted after the kids had opened up all their presents and the amount of stuff they got, which I helped to contribute to.
How does someone who grew up a spoiled brat stop the cycle. I guess being aware is first thing. But doesn't every generation always say "I want my kids to have what I didn't..." Which just opens the door for excess. Because that then means you have to give them what you did have and more. If someone came for meager means I can see that more so. But then you run the possibility of going off the deep in.

My kids are so precious and I'm SO THANKFUL they are alive and well after the rough start they had it can be really hard to say no to them and not give them the world. But at the same time I feel like I'm totally missing out and certain things just are not being handled as they should. There is just so much nurturing that the kids need right now as they are getting older and learning things, also NOT learning things because the time is just not there for a lot of this stuff. I felt totally use less when my husband informed me that the girls preschool teacher is going to start working on getting them potty trained. Isn't that suppose to be our job? I would love the help, but have not figured out a way to get the process going while I'm not at home. Especially with hubby. The kids would have an accident before he would remember that it had been awhile since they used the potty. Which is also another problem of mine. I feel I have to do everything because people just don't pay attention to details the way I do. And it will just be more work in the end for me. So just do it myself and that will be less work, yet I don't have the time. I really wish I was the type of person who could function on 4-5 hours of sleep so I had more time in the day.

Oh and on top of all this I feel that I'm screwing up my kids. I started off strong with the rules and consequences for breaking them, but I just don't have the energy anymore to be consistent. Not to mention the fact that I'm also suppose to disclipine the kids for things they do that hubby doesn't want to deal with. AAAAHHHH!!!!!

Things have gotten so out of control and I have no idea how to regain it!

Opening Blog

Well this is my opening post! I have been doing a blog for my kids to keep family and friends up to date as far as their development and health issue's. So there will be some of that. But mostly about me and my crazy life of raising triplets and trying to keep my own health on the up and up. Oh and I'm evidently a Type A personality...something I learned recently during marriage counseling. Did I say I also work full time and attend school in the pursuit of getting my bachelors degree?? LOL! :)

I can a be a bit crazy(hence the medication) and I defintely speak my mind, there really is no holding back for me and that is not just because this is a blog, I'm pretty much like this in real life. No time for games or stories tell it like it is and move on life is too short. It sounds harsh but I do try to speak my mind in a way to get the point across and attempt not to hurt feelings(Not always successful). I'm a recent (Guess not that recent it will be 2yrs in Feb) convert to the LDS faith and it has been a wonderful thing for myself and my family. We are not the most faithful at being to church every Sunday. It is really hard to get 5 people out the door all at the same time. Not to mention all the equipment that goes along with a kid who is on a vent 24/7. I have my struggles with changing the things in my life that go along with my faith, but I know the Lord is with me and I have some really great people at church helping me with my new journey.

I have been married to my husband for almost nine years now. I keep teasing him I have to trade him in for a younger model :). But this one is so much work I don't know that I could handle another, this one is trained so well. Not really but I like to think so on occasion. LOL!